View fullsize I still remember the days where I prayed for the things I have now. - unknown - 🍂 🍁 Happy Thanksgiving everyone! - 🍂 🍁 #gratefulheart #mourningaftermorning #ivfjourney #ivfsuccess #ivfsisters #ivfsupport #ivfcommunity #ivfgotthis #miscarriagesupp
View fullsize I was visiting our gestational carrier when she was pregnant with our twin girls and a neighborhood kid asked her why she was carrying my babies. She related it to cookies, sharing that my oven was broken, so she was baking my cookies for me. - - Whi
View fullsize This is the face of a mama that finally made it. - - A face that never gave up despite the constant set backs and gut punching losses. - - A mama that knew in every fiber of her being she would someway, somehow, get her family started. - - So she pu
View fullsize “We pivoted our focus off me in late August that year to our gestational carrier. Our contract was complete and we were ready to transfer two of the four strong embryos from my February retrieval. We drove to Colorado to meet her in person for
View fullsize In a month where I’m posting a lot around our losses, I want to reshare an incredibly hopeful miracle story. Today my youngest turns two. I wrote the below on the anniversary of her transfer. Hoping this sends all of you IVF warriors, and anyon
View fullsize Two months after my chemical pregnancy I got pregnant AGAIN. This time my numbers climbed and we got to hear a heartbeat. 💓 So we started the hope (could THIS be the time?) and fear (there is no way this will last) dance as we prayed our way towards
View fullsize My mom used to get upset when people labeled my second trimester twin loss as a miscarriage. I don’t blame her for feeling this way, both of my parents were with us that night and witnessed the heartbreak of it all. But when she would tell me t
View fullsize My last egg retrieval was climactic for different reasons other than what you would expect... because I knew I was finished. The previous years filled with endless, unsuccessful IVF’s, piggybacked with extreme grief, were behind us. I would soo
View fullsize October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month ... where we remember the babies gone too soon. Sending a big hug to those out there who have suffered a loss of any kind. To everyone else, it’s time to learn more about loss so you can be p
View fullsize This week was hard. Seeing the larger picture after 7 years still doesn’t take away the extreme joy and loss we’ve felt. Every year we make a trip to the cemetery to visit them, clean up their grave. Talk to them. I honestly don’t f
View fullsize This day is about you. Its about the pure joy we felt shortly after we saw the two blips on the ultrasound and realized we were blessed with not one, but two!!!! Its about the fact that you FINALLY made us a mom and dad, something we both wanted our
View fullsize Last year, through my current job, I had the opportunity to participate in an incredible program at the Experience Institute in Chicago. It’s an after work program set over the course of 6-8 weeks that gives you the inspiration, tools, structur
View fullsize a“The fifth and final stage of grief. When we come to a place of acceptance, it is not that we no longer feel the pain of loss. However, we are no longer resisting the reality of our situation, and we are not struggling to make it something dif
View fullsize Ive never considered myself a runner yet I’ve been running for over 20 years. Probably because I’m not running to achieve what most would expect ... completing a race. While I may have started for the physical benefits, and still appreci
View fullsize I know sometimes our hope feels trampled on, but hang onto what you can with all your might. It will get you up day after day and slowly bring possibility back in again. . 🌞 #morningaftermourning #hopequotes #ivfstory #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunity #ivf
View fullsize “A lot of people asked me after we lost the twins, why would you try to get pregnant again if the same thing could happen? How would you survive that grief all over again? Well you never shake that fear or PTSD. And in the beginning I didn&rsqu
View fullsize Keep standing up. Even if you need others to help you. One day you will stand up, look around and realize you made it. ☀️⁣ ⁣ ⁣⁣⁣⁣⁣ #Keepstanding #youarenotalone #morningaftermourning #dontgiveup #keepfighting #grief #ivfstory #ivfwarrior #ivfcommunit
View fullsize I just came across this photo and was flooded with emotion over where we were on our journey when it was taken. ⁣ ⁣ On the surface you see two people enjoying a stop while driving through the beautiful Tetons. ⁣ ⁣ What you don’t see is that we
View fullsize A word I’ll never hear the same again. A word I’ll always equate to losing my unborn babies. They passed every test. They were healthy and growing. But they weren’t “viable” when I went into preterm labor at 22 weeks. S
View fullsize Why I started this blog. ❤️ If my story helps just one person it will all be worth it. Now if only I could find the time to post more. 🤦🏼‍♀️🤷‍♀️ Thank you again for your beautiful poetry @morganharpernichols ⁣⁣ ⁣⁣ #morningaftermourning #s